This is my personal journal sharing the joys of living life as a rose, where roots go deep, thorns are sharp and painful, but life is worth the bloom! Life, for me includes a diagnosis of Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia. I have previously survived a diagnosis of another cancer called Chondrosarcoma.
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Tuesday
Even Roses Have Bad Days
A visit to the clinic today for a CT scan, with contrast. No food after 1pm. Start drinking contrast fluid at 2:30 about ten ounces every twenty minutes until 4:30. I was supposed to be called in for the scan at that time. By 5pm I started getting sharp stomach pains and made a run for the bathroom down the hall. I made it but not all the way. Just then a woman came in. (poor thing!) I told her I was sick (surely it was obvious) and could she get my husband from the radiology waiting room. She ran out (smart woman) and didn't return.
I hate losing control like that. Being sick in public is humiliating and de-humanizing. I had to ask for hospital gowns to wear. Momentarily, I thought to go home. That would have been the sensible thing to do. Right? Not! There's no way I would go home after ingesting that contrast stuff and then have to come back to do it all over again!!! No thank you! I stayed there and dealt with the situation. I've been through worse.
Once my sweet man helped me clean up and got the gowns for me, he escorted me back to the radiology dept. I spoke to one of the techs, told her I was ill and she got me in to lie down quickly, covered me with a heated blanket and I was soon feeling much better. And we got on with doing the scan. Unfortunately, I don't have any nice puffy veins left so they have to hunt one down. The tech went and got another person to come and insert the IV on the side of my wrist. He really did a good job of it. Didn't hurt all that much, and I have no bruise!!!! Woo Hoo!
I'm sure the average reader would not care to be looking at this post. But, this is what my blog is about. It includes the thorns and roses of everyday life whilst managing one's health issues. So things are not always going to be pleasant. Life sucks sometimes. But if you hang on long enough you get through it, a little demoralized occasionally, but then you go on from there.
I requested a copy of my scan and recieved it before I left. Oh... why did I have the scan? I have a soft lump in my left flank at waist level. It's about the size of a small boiled egg, and feels like it too.
Friday
Leukemia and Kittens
I'm hanging in here okay. One day I'm fine. The next day I'm sick. Though, I find that I'm more fine than sick, so I like that.
I've been able to dig in the garden, pull weeds and plant things a bit. But, not too much. Sometimes I'd like to just spend a whole day gardening like I used to. I push myself. I feel so happy to be able to garden that I forget myself and go beyond a reasonable time! Then, I'm exhausted and suddenly have to go inside, leaving my tools out on the ground. When it's like that, the only answer is to lie down.
I have two new kittens. Did you see their pix? That makes a total of six. I now have the "legal limit" for Santa Cruz County. Probably a good thing, otherwise I would be a Cat Lady.
Oops! I guess I'm already a Cat Lady. I just didn't realize it. Six cats! What am I thinking? I guess if I go for the seventh cat, THEN I'll be a Crazy Cat Lady. Just one more cat is all it takes!
Note: I'm sure in the background just beyond the right corner of the rocking chair you can see the bumper sticker that says, "Mystery Spot". Wondering what that is? A very interesting place here in Santa Cruz County. Check it out.
I've been able to dig in the garden, pull weeds and plant things a bit. But, not too much. Sometimes I'd like to just spend a whole day gardening like I used to. I push myself. I feel so happy to be able to garden that I forget myself and go beyond a reasonable time! Then, I'm exhausted and suddenly have to go inside, leaving my tools out on the ground. When it's like that, the only answer is to lie down.
I have two new kittens. Did you see their pix? That makes a total of six. I now have the "legal limit" for Santa Cruz County. Probably a good thing, otherwise I would be a Cat Lady.
Oops! I guess I'm already a Cat Lady. I just didn't realize it. Six cats! What am I thinking? I guess if I go for the seventh cat, THEN I'll be a Crazy Cat Lady. Just one more cat is all it takes!
Note: I'm sure in the background just beyond the right corner of the rocking chair you can see the bumper sticker that says, "Mystery Spot". Wondering what that is? A very interesting place here in Santa Cruz County. Check it out.
Monday
Sick Christmas
Christmas was not too good. Pretty sick.
Had to tell Xaver and Amy to not come for dinner.
I didn't want them to catch what I have, if it is the flu.
Don't know for sure. Might be chemo reaction.
Feeling better today
Kats is taking me out to dinner.
Friday
For Better and Worse
I am feeling better! I got my Guardian Angel to come take care of me that night I was so sick. He drove 57 miles to get here after working a full day. He took care of my every need, by reading the notes I wrote. If I spoke I would cough incessantly! He changed the bed, cleaned the bathroom, held the trash can as I got sick. Oh, I felt so much better after that episode! While I finally lay there in comfort, he did the laundry until 2 am. Then got up at 6 to go back to work again. I couldn't ask for more!
The next day, still sick, but not as bad. Emailed my doctor. His nurse, the one I like, called me to ask questions and let me know doctor had ordered cough medicine with codeine in it to help quell the cough. A neighbor who had seen my posting on facebook volunteered to pick up my prescription. Bless her!
The next day after that I was well enough to have my housekeeper take me to the store to pick up a last minute Christmas gift. I didn't cough once the hour and a half we were gone!. Oddly, by evening the coughing was back again. But, the nausea has not returned.
The coughing does a number on my neck, upper spine and rib cage though. I even heard my neck crack with coughing. Every muscle is sore. I'm using my super duper official medically therapeutic heating pad to help with all that. I don't know what I would do without it. Originally it was ordered for me years ago for arthritis bone pain. I is so large I goes from my shoulders all the way down my back to buttocks. I learned about it from my physical therapist who used it in her practice. Because of the special cover, it produces moist heat. There is a safety feature, too. You have to hold the switch into the on position yourself. That way you can't fall asleep with it on, and burn your skin or over cook your joints.
It heats up real fast and quite high, so, believe me, you don't need to hold onto the switch for very long at all. The heat takes a while to dissipate too. I love it! The only drawback is the price. I don't know if you can get it ordered by your doctor as a prescription, and insurance pay for it. Though, I didn't mind paying for it myself. It has outlasted any small size common plastic heating pad I have ever had by years! Here's the link, if you want to take a look at the site where you can order it. Then click on "Moist Heat Therapy" I like mine the best though. It's model #055, size 14" by 27".
I hope I'm not sounding too whiney and hypochondriacal. But, this is, after all, my journey, the good, bad and ugly. Having the Leukemia may seem to be what it's all about, but it is more than that. The Leukemia and the Chemo will not affect every aspect of my health. And because I already had several underlying conditions before diagnosis, then they are affected at well. I still have so much to learn in how to get things managed and back into balance.
So, the title of this posting is for Better and Worse. I've written about the better. Now for the worse. Or what I think may be the worse.
In January of 2009 I started taking a prescription drug for one of my autoimmune conditions. It is called Cellcept. It is usually what transplant patients take in order to keep their bodies from rejecting their donated kidneys, livers, lungs or whatever. When I first looked at the possible adverse affects of Cellcept I didn't think they were too bad, and was willing to take it even though one of the remote possibilities was Lymphoma. I was desperate and so tired of the battle with my autoimmune disease which had me in it's grip for five years before. I took the Cellcept for 22 months before I needed to stop taking it. Cellcept lowers the immune system and therefore you are more susceptible to infection. I came down with a bad cold and bronchitis at the time. The doctor told me to stop taking it otherwise I would end up with Pneumonia.
So ten months after stopping the Cellcept is when I was diagnosed with the Leukemia. Is there a connection? I don't know for sure. Lymphoma was an expected possibility.
It had not occurred to me until today that maybe there is a connection between Cellcept and Leukemia. To be fair. I don't know that for sure. I hope the company will call me back so we can discuss it.
So let's get back to something better now. How about this picture? Not taken by me, by the way. But, I thought it's nice for this time of year. I've got it on my computer as a desktop background.
The next day, still sick, but not as bad. Emailed my doctor. His nurse, the one I like, called me to ask questions and let me know doctor had ordered cough medicine with codeine in it to help quell the cough. A neighbor who had seen my posting on facebook volunteered to pick up my prescription. Bless her!
The next day after that I was well enough to have my housekeeper take me to the store to pick up a last minute Christmas gift. I didn't cough once the hour and a half we were gone!. Oddly, by evening the coughing was back again. But, the nausea has not returned.
The coughing does a number on my neck, upper spine and rib cage though. I even heard my neck crack with coughing. Every muscle is sore. I'm using my super duper official medically therapeutic heating pad to help with all that. I don't know what I would do without it. Originally it was ordered for me years ago for arthritis bone pain. I is so large I goes from my shoulders all the way down my back to buttocks. I learned about it from my physical therapist who used it in her practice. Because of the special cover, it produces moist heat. There is a safety feature, too. You have to hold the switch into the on position yourself. That way you can't fall asleep with it on, and burn your skin or over cook your joints.
It heats up real fast and quite high, so, believe me, you don't need to hold onto the switch for very long at all. The heat takes a while to dissipate too. I love it! The only drawback is the price. I don't know if you can get it ordered by your doctor as a prescription, and insurance pay for it. Though, I didn't mind paying for it myself. It has outlasted any small size common plastic heating pad I have ever had by years! Here's the link, if you want to take a look at the site where you can order it. Then click on "Moist Heat Therapy" I like mine the best though. It's model #055, size 14" by 27".
I hope I'm not sounding too whiney and hypochondriacal. But, this is, after all, my journey, the good, bad and ugly. Having the Leukemia may seem to be what it's all about, but it is more than that. The Leukemia and the Chemo will not affect every aspect of my health. And because I already had several underlying conditions before diagnosis, then they are affected at well. I still have so much to learn in how to get things managed and back into balance.
So, the title of this posting is for Better and Worse. I've written about the better. Now for the worse. Or what I think may be the worse.
In January of 2009 I started taking a prescription drug for one of my autoimmune conditions. It is called Cellcept. It is usually what transplant patients take in order to keep their bodies from rejecting their donated kidneys, livers, lungs or whatever. When I first looked at the possible adverse affects of Cellcept I didn't think they were too bad, and was willing to take it even though one of the remote possibilities was Lymphoma. I was desperate and so tired of the battle with my autoimmune disease which had me in it's grip for five years before. I took the Cellcept for 22 months before I needed to stop taking it. Cellcept lowers the immune system and therefore you are more susceptible to infection. I came down with a bad cold and bronchitis at the time. The doctor told me to stop taking it otherwise I would end up with Pneumonia.
So ten months after stopping the Cellcept is when I was diagnosed with the Leukemia. Is there a connection? I don't know for sure. Lymphoma was an expected possibility.
It had not occurred to me until today that maybe there is a connection between Cellcept and Leukemia. To be fair. I don't know that for sure. I hope the company will call me back so we can discuss it.
So let's get back to something better now. How about this picture? Not taken by me, by the way. But, I thought it's nice for this time of year. I've got it on my computer as a desktop background.
Saturday
Pelvis Slippage
I've been sick with tummy and bowels acting up. It's 2:30 in the morning. I can't sleep because of pain and visits to the bathroom. So, I stay sitting up in bed with my laptop sorting pictures and putting them in file folders.
Biggest problem is that my pelvis on the left is slipping out of it's normal position. I can feel it like sitting on a rock. I wonder if I will walk okay tomorrow.
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